I go back sometimes, when I wake up in the morning a little too early and I feel the chill of fall. I go back sometimes, when I am sitting in class and the teacher’s droning voice has me half-asleep. It is almost reflexive, this time-traveling, like some sort of defense mechanism – a ready response to pain. My mind is not prepared to accept the oncoming winter, so it returns me to summer and Current River like an angel might safely deposit a tired soul on the far-side banks of Jordan.
I was never much of a river rat until this summer, when my aunt’s boyfriend took me fishing on Current River in a thunderstorm. To Charlie’s credit, it did not begin raining until we were already on the water. Just the same, we did not cut and run until we had a mess of blue gill in our boat and no bait left in the cooler. It was on that trip that I realized, whilst reeling in a fish in the pouring rain, that river life was just volatile and exciting enough to suit my healthy sense of adventure.
Uncle Charlie was born on the river. His family – the Grubbs – settled a long time ago in a hollow not far from Van Buren, Missouri. Current River, as it flows through Van Buren, is a sight for sore eyes. That river, filled with fish and folklore, was his playground as much as his legacy. Charlie is the intimate friend of every harrowing shoal and painted bluff within a fifty-mile radius of Grubb Landing, and this summer he introduced my aunt and I to each and every one of them. It was on the bow of his forty-horse Evinrude that I did most of my meditation.
Time spent on the river is, more than anything, a method of escape. In a place with no cellphone reception, there is very little for a girl to worry about except dodging dragonflies – also known as “snake doctors” – and working on the perfect tan. The breeze, the sun, and the postcard view can melt away stress and ease loneliness more efficiently than anything else I have ever felt or seen. Just stand on the overlook at Big Springs or take in the bluffs at Logyard and you will understand; the river is not just a vacation spot, it is a frame of mind.







